Peace

Since I have been having issues with anxiety I have become more grateful for peace.  Today I gave a talk in sacrament meeting and was anxious all morning, but when the meeting started it went away.  That blessing was huge and I am very grateful for the peace I felt and the Spirit that was present.

4-H & RS

I am grateful for the 4-H program which taught me how to sew, how to cook, lots of crafts, how to write my ideas down, and gave me time with my mother.
I am grateful for the Relief Society program which allows me to share this knowledge and improve upon it.

Family

I am thankful for:
1.  My children helping me fold the laundry.
2.  Kyle being willing to stay home from work with sick children yesterday while I was at the Bishop's Storehouse.

Home Sweet Home

I am grateful for:
1.  Rearranging furniture.  The ability to create a new space simply by moving furniture and wall hangings fulfills some of my need to create.
2.  The sound of rain, and thunder.

Catch up

As you can see it has been a long time since I have posted.  Why??  Mainly because when I think about it I don't want to.  Now that is not a very good reason, but an honest one.  The past few months I have had a lot to be grateful for.
1.  I am grateful for family.  Hyrum had his first birthday and is healthy and happy.  Kyle and I celebrated our 8th anniversary!!  Zachary finished Kindergarten.  He did wonderfully and learned so much.  On his tests he scored in the 98th percentile for math and the 92nd for reading. Eric finished preschool and is excited to move on to Kindergarten next year.  I have planned a school for the summer, which I am excited about.  Wendy moved into a big girl bed, and talks up a storm.  She is also quick to say thank-you.  We went on a family trip to Hawaii.
2.  I am also grateful for the plan of salvation.  The past few months have been difficult in some ways.  My Grandma Haroldsen passed away.  She was a wonderful example.  I am grateful for her life and the example of Grandpa caring for and loving her through illness.
3.  I am also grateful for peace.  I started having anxiety attacks and always being worried.  It has definitely affected the way I live. I am currently on medication, which I am thankful for, but I don't know if it is really working.  I am often tired (exhausted) and take naps during the day (at least I can).  I also don't have much of an appetite, especially in the morning (I have lost 15 lbs).  I have had to call on Kyle multiple times (he is willing to stay home and is worthy to give me blessings).  As you can see even in trial there are many blessings, I need to take the time to write them down.  So I recommit to using this blog as a way to remember all that the Lord has blessed me with.

What I would miss.

I am grateful for:
1.  Kyle, I miss him more when he is not here, I need to let him know how grateful I am for him.
2.  Sewing, and Reading both are outlets I enjoy.

Little boys

I am grateful for:
1.  Two boys who did well at school today.  Green for behavior.
2.  Two boys who did not give me grief when their time on the computer was done.
3.  One little baby boy who let me maneuver him so he was sucking the right way on my hurt breast.  He was almost upside down.

Sabbath Day

I am grateful for:
1.  Kyle allowing me to take a nap each Sunday.
2.  Feeling the Spirit at church.
3.  Having sisters willing to watch Hyrum while Kyle and I are teaching.

Babies

1.  Hyrum boy, who is learning to walk
2.  Wendy girl, who likes to pretend she is a baby when she wants her binkie out of bed
3.  Zachary and Eric who are far from the little babies I once had but will always be my little ones.

Thanks

I am grateful for:
1.  Zachary and Eric both said "Thank-you" to Wendy when she gave them a cupcake, without prompting, and she said "You're welcome" again without prompting.
2.  Creating things, specifically a dress for Wendy.

Cookies

I am grateful for cookies
1.  Delicious Girl Scout cookies that I ordered today
2.  Butterscotch/peanut butter ones I made with fiber cereal, makes me feel more healthy

Little Things

I am grateful for:
1.  The Laundry being folded
2.  Pandora's Disney music station
3.  A little baby's smile

Obeying and music

I am grateful for:
1.  Eric obeying the first time twice this morning.
2.  Music (listening and making)

Back at it

Well after a wonderful Christmas holiday, we went to Idaho and Utah from December 19- January 3.  Hopefully after a couple of weeks back I am back in the swing of things and will try to post more frequently.  So why did I decide to start today?
1.  Today is a day that my kids have behaved, played with each other, listened, smiled, interacted with me in humorous ways, all of this adds up to one thing.

 Today I am grateful and love being a mother!